what am i willing to lose?

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I’m approaching the end of a long battle.

I was hoping it would resolve peacefully, but it doesn’t look like that’s possible. Still, it will be over. One way or the other.

But how it ends, well, that’s the question. Will I feel I won? That I lost? I’m not really sure. Victories are not even so cut and dried in life as in fantasy novels. It comes down to this question:

What am I willing to lose?

You see, sometimes it’s not a question of what one is willing to win. Or even what one hopes to win. I’d love to win everything, of course. But the real question is, What will you give up? And I’m trying to figure that out now, what I’m willing to give up. Because that is the test. If I don’t lose more than I am willing, than I’ve won. In my mind, at least.

I know precisely what I’m willing to sacrifice. There is very little that I’m not willing to lose. I will give up anything, if I must, but not my home. Not my values. And not the hearts and minds of those I care about. I’ve already won all those things. I won’t lose them now.

All I can do now is wait and see what happens next.

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