aftercare is what we provide to our partners “afterwards,” whatever that means loving, gentle or isolation, or whatever we need “afterwards,” whenever that “afterwards” occurs my “after” happens very quickly, a snuggle, water that magically appears by my side when I hold out my hand, eyes still closed until they can stand light, any light, …
understanding aftercare Read More »
Greed is normal, jealousy is normal. But what does “normal” even mean? Is it what is common? What is natural? What is right? I go to a doctor, I say I’m feeling “normal” today. My chronic pain is “normal.” That, of course, differs from those with lesser or greater chronic pain. It is, however, normal …
normalizing love and lovingness Read More »
Breathing, deep breaths What I have with my little ones though they’d hate to be called that now, but they always will be to me Is precious, rare More-so than some ordinary diamond I am their “ama” now We celebrated together, muted, perhaps, but sincere A beautiful memory of an evening I earned that Something …
what they gave me for Mother’s Day Read More »
Jealousy is a powerful driver. It can consume and destroy lives. I still remember the oldest munchkin, then age 6, sighing as she shook her head, “Jealousy.” (We were talking about her biological mother, and she brought the word up, not me.) But her mother feels jealousy over her children. I am at a loss …
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Swish, she flings her perfect creamy legs out in front of her, then swish back again. If I can stay here forever in this perfect moment, she thinks. He is watching her, she knows, but she is not ready to come in. She keeps swinging in perfect rhythm. The soft pink and gold glow sinks below the lake. …
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I am a very, very bad girl. I need to be punished. He assures me he can cure me of my sickness, my twisted desires for flesh of the same sex. I’m hesitant, until his Glory is outstretched before me. Hmmm, it looks manageable. I think I can take that much of God’s magnificent power. …
that time the glory of God penetrated me with His curative powers Read More »
ghosting smearing to cover your own cowardice violating boundaries spreading lies manipulation petty piece of shit
A reminder of the quote from More Than Two, “Make sure there are no monsters under your bed before you do it, because if there are any weak points in your relationship if there is anything you’re not sure about, if there are any little fears or insecurities you have polyamory will find them it …
further thoughts on “More Than Two”: you’ll never find “all” the monsters Read More »
I heard that promise many times before, but what they meant is they wanted to take the world from me and replace it with them. They didn’t want to give me the world; rather they wanted to hide me from it. They were afraid for me to go out in the world without them. Afraid …
you gave me the world Read More »
I had a friend come out recently, everywhere. I’m proud of her, but above all, I am grateful. You see, while my inner family, my chosen family knows? I am still not in a position to be freely open with who I am, especially regarding being polyamorous and owned. I wish I were- but I cannot risk …
honesty is a privilege we should all exercise when we have the ability Read More »