Dear [_______], I’d tell you that I’m sorry, if I could. You’d like to hear that, yes? So would I. Neither of us will receive our wish. Can’t have it all. At least you got everything you asked for. Of course, that doesn’t make it less shitty. You had a perfect arrangement where nobody needed …
thank you note to the woman who will never hear me, a Read More »
Some people are so sure that life would be perfect- if only you weren’t in it. Have you ever met one of them? I have. It isn’t pleasant. She is a person that exists alongside me. She keeps me, as much as she is able, away from her. She can’t entirely avoid me, but she …
she believes everything would be better if I simply went away Read More »
She can be very charming, you know. Say the right words, put on the right costume. She smiles and laughs– and it rings hollow to me, but others seem to think it’s natural. It’s nothing like the tinkling glass chimes that is my youngest munchkin’s laughter, the kind that sounds like a waterfall. You’d never …
i thought she said sorry Read More »
Has anyone ever given you a view from halfway down? I hope not. What I mean by this is, has anyone shown you what your life might look like if you made the wrong choice? Lived it in front of you? While you watched them every step of the way towards their own downfall? Well, …
she gave me a view from halfway down Read More »
Summer’s faded into autumn. It’s my favorite time of the year. Pretty sweaters, cozy lazy dresses and brisk, cool weather. It’s the end of the watermelon season.
She didn’t agree to me falling in love with him, with HER love. She owns him like she owns her ring, and she sees no need to share on anyone else’s terms. She allows him to sleep with other women, if she approves of them. In her mind, this is good enough. In the car,- …
love isn’t always consensual but it can be ethical Read More »
I’ve been reflecting on this sentiment, what with the election and all, and our dear, Glorious Leader declaring himself the winner, because, well, of course he is. He says he won, that means he won. Results and votes matter very little, right? It’s an odd thing, having a narcissist in your life and living with …
it isn’t up to her, OR waking up to a bright new day Read More »
This is her life. She no longer has anything but a tightly cordial, transactional relationship with someone she used to claim was the love of her life. If she has a relationship with her children, they never speak of it in kind terms. She believes the last decade of her life was a waste- as …
her web of lies: an unfortunate fairytale or how I put my past behind me Read More »
I’m speaking with a friend about someone who has hurt them. And they tell me, But the thing is… And those words reverberate in my head, But the thing is…But the thing is…But the thing is… I am sure I am not alone in having a poisonous ex or two. By which I mean, they …
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When I first started dating my master, he was with Someone Else. I know, this isn’t your typical fairy tale, but it’s mine. I hope you listen, because it’s difficult to make this short. Anyway. Let me tell you about her. Someone- in every typical, measurable societal standard- more “valuable” to him than myself. Someone …
when you’re just a little different from your metamours Read More »