Suffocating, feels like I can’t breathe Can’t speak The problem, of course, is that toxic positivity is POSITIVE She feigns concern for her children, “They should have heat when it’s cold.” The problem is it isn’t that cold, my own mother gently chided me when I complained myself, “Good thing you lost heat when you …
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Was it worth it? The birthday party. The mediocre houses, mediocre summer house, mediocre friends. The afternoon getting drunk at a bar before that concert. I hope they were great fucking drinks considering the price you paid for them. She called you names So you had to get her back He lied to you, so …
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Ever met someone who was so sure life would be perfect- if you weren’t in it? Someone who believes you to be the cause of all their problems. Someone who tries to pretend you don’t exist. Someone who has convinced themselves that you aren’t real. ….but their troubles are their own. Their life is their …
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Dear [_______], I’d tell you that I’m sorry, if I could. You’d like to hear that, yes? So would I. Neither of us will receive our wish. Can’t have it all. At least you got everything you asked for. Of course, that doesn’t make it less shitty. You had a perfect arrangement where nobody needed …
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She can be very charming, you know. Say the right words, put on the right costume. She smiles and laughs– and it rings hollow to me, but others seem to think it’s natural. It’s nothing like the tinkling glass chimes that is my youngest munchkin’s laughter, the kind that sounds like a waterfall. You’d never …
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Has anyone ever given you a view from halfway down? I hope not. What I mean by this is, has anyone shown you what your life might look like if you made the wrong choice? Lived it in front of you? While you watched them every step of the way towards their own downfall? Well, …
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“She doesn’t get to be traumatized!” Firstly, let me say that my munchkin and her biological mother have a strained relationship. There’s plenty of reason for her to feel angry towards the woman who gave birth to her. Of course, that would almost be an upgrade to her current coldness and indifference. Except when moments …
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Summer’s faded into autumn. It’s my favorite time of the year. Pretty sweaters, cozy lazy dresses and brisk, cool weather. It’s the end of the watermelon season.
She didn’t agree to me falling in love with him, with HER love. She owns him like she owns her ring, and she sees no need to share on anyone else’s terms. She allows him to sleep with other women, if she approves of them. In her mind, this is good enough. One time, she …
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I’ve been reflecting on this sentiment, what with the election and all, and our dear, Glorious Leader declaring himself the winner, because, well, of course he is. He says he won, that means he won. Results and votes matter very little, right? It’s an odd thing, having a narcissist in your life and living with …
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