At the age Elizabeth became queen, I had just met my master. I did not know it at the time, though he claims he knew exactly what would soon unfold. Me? I stumbled into a whole mess- wonderful as the mess might have turned into- the way I usually lived my life. Of course, I’m grateful for this particular stumble.
There’s a lot of noise and confusion as you come into your own, as a queer person. For context, I have at least one child who is going through an active period of questioning and evolving her sexuality. At twelve, she’s already dealing with her own “noise.” Is she confused? Not really. Not anymore than …
… can be exhausting. Justifying. Explaining. Listening to second hand lies. Of what or who I am, according to those who haven’t bothered to ask me. I am not queer enough. I am not attracted to enough bodies (why can’t you be pansexual?). Not loving enough, etc. etc. I live with a man, I play …
living in a heterosexual relationship, as a bisexual being: part one: on being “enough” Read More »
When you get almost everything you want, you sometimes forget about the little niceties you failed to win. Other times, it’s all you can think about. I’m thinking about it today. Dumb, ridiculous me. It’s the ask, that’s what it comes down to. I want to be happy in our new life. With our two …
rain in the desert Read More »
i could not put a price on the munchkinsbut our lawyers, their mother could happily do so, this is how much it costs to protect your right to live with them, this is how much you must pay to see them, this is how much you must make in order to be allowed to have …
things I could have, the Read More »
Sssshh, little kitten. Everything is going to be okay. It’s difficult to push aside harsh and frustrating truths at times. Nor do I think anyone should avoid confronting one’s reality. Only I do believe that it’s okay to take a deep breath every so often. Lose oneself in a happy place. Troubles can wait until …
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Last night I didn’t want to go to sleep. I felt a streak of stubbornness (“I am never going to sleep ever again!”). M told me, “Time for bed, Kitten.” And I went. Maybe a bit reluctantly, but I climbed in and crawled up to him. _______________________________________________________ The next morning, he praises me, “Good kitten,” …
today i had breakfast Read More »