This is for anyone to use as a template if they have trouble with how people talk to them about their trauma and abuse– and would rather stay silent than deal with second hand trauma from having poor reactions from people who are trying to help, or make it worse. We speak of victims and …
Ever met someone who was so sure life would be perfect- if you weren’t in it? Someone who believes you to be the cause of all their problems. Someone who tries to pretend you don’t exist. Someone who has convinced themselves that you aren’t real. ….but their troubles are their own. Their life is their …
to the person who believes life would be better if I went away Read More »
She can be very charming, you know. Say the right words, put on the right costume. She smiles and laughs– and it rings hollow to me, but others seem to think it’s natural. It’s nothing like the tinkling glass chimes that is my youngest munchkin’s laughter, the kind that sounds like a waterfall. You’d never …
#relentless We’ve been fighting for, God, six years now? Longer? I’ve forgotten what we’re even fighting about. But She has not. I felt sure she’d give up by now, if not out of sheer boredom. But she’s been surprisingly resilient. Still stuck in her own story. I cannot explain her, not anymore. I can only …
As soon as she wasn’t interested in me sexually, she wasn’t interested in me romantically. As soon as she wasn’t interested in me romantically, she wasn’t interested in speaking with me. As soon as she wasn’t interested in speaking with me, she stopped saying “hello.” As soon as she stopped saying “hello,” she needed a …
Abused people, abuse people. I’ve heard that a lot. It’s easy to find yourself trapped in that mentality. As angry as I’ve gotten at my ex-metamour, I know that she’s mostly repeating what her own mother did to her. This is what she believes love looks like. It’s what she’s known. Abused people, abuse people. …
“She doesn’t get to be traumatized!” Firstly, let me say that my munchkin and her biological mother have a strained relationship. There’s plenty of reason for her to feel angry towards the woman who gave birth to her. Of course, that would almost be an upgrade to her current coldness and indifference. Except when moments …
Summer’s faded into autumn. It’s my favorite time of the year. Pretty sweaters, cozy lazy dresses and brisk, cool weather. It’s the end of the watermelon season.
I’m tired. Exhausted, really. Some days I just want to run as far as I possibly can. I am a kitten, and a kitten can often be skittish. A kitten wants to be loved, yes, but doesn’t always know how to ask for it or find it. I am, indeed, one of the lucky ones. …
This is her life. She no longer has anything but a tightly cordial, transactional relationship with someone she used to claim was the love of her life. If she has a relationship with her children, they never speak of it in kind terms. She believes the last decade of her life was a waste- as …
her web of lies: an unfortunate fairytale, or how I put my past behind me Read More »