I choose kindness, compassion, and warmth. Being the one to bring a smile to your lips- rather than tears to your eyes- makes me feel…full. Gentle. Soft. Welcoming. The one that attracts the pups and kittens and littles, who perhaps sense that I won’t hurt them. The one that you know will hold you, sharing …
Ever met someone who was so sure life would be perfect- if you weren’t in it? Someone who believes you to be the cause of all their problems. Someone who tries to pretend you don’t exist. Someone who has convinced themselves that you aren’t real. ….but their troubles are their own. Their life is their …
to the person who believes life would be better if I went away Read More »
Dear [_______], I’d tell you that I’m sorry, if I could. You’d like to hear that, yes? So would I. Neither of us will receive our wish. Can’t have it all. At least you got everything you asked for. Of course, that doesn’t make it less shitty. You had a perfect arrangement where nobody needed …
thank you note to the woman who will never hear me, a Read More »
“You won,” my friend says. And I guess I needed to hear that message. After all the shit we’ve been through, what we’re left with today is nothing more than what we started out with a decade ago. But it’s different. It doesn’t look different, but it feels different. Sometimes winning simply means getting back …
I’ve never had that overwhelming life defining moment. Things just kept happening. That was all. I’ve never had the wedding day, nerve wracking graduation (yes, I graduated, but just bachelor’s, nothing special), or the birth of my child. I’ve had very good days and very bad days. Or I’ve had days I floated on my …
She is wild, unpredictable, but she calls to me and her voice is soothing and sweet among the crashing waves. She sings to me, sometimes it feels only me. Yet I know she is singing to any and all who dare to approach her. I miss the ocean. It’s lovely to have water nearby, but …
She didn’t agree to me falling in love with him, with her love. It is ten years ago. She owns him, in her mind, as she owns her children. She allows him to sleep with other women, if she approves of them, if they are safe, if they are less than her. In her mind, this …
love isn’t always consensual but it can be ethical Read More »
It’s tempting, I’ll admit. When someone hopes desperately that I am the evil, horrible, no good person they want me to be. But why would they want that, you say? If it’s happened to you, you already know the answer to this. Thankfully, not all of us have. Because if you are that person, you see, it …
I’ve been reflecting on this sentiment, what with the election and all, and our dear, Glorious Leader declaring himself the winner, because, well, of course he is. He says he won, that means he won. Results and votes matter very little, right? It’s an odd thing, having a narcissist in your life and living with …
it isn’t up to her, OR waking up to a bright new day Read More »
I’m speaking with a friend about someone who has hurt them. And they tell me, But the thing is… And those words reverberate in my head, But the thing is…But the thing is…But the thing is… I am sure I am not alone in having a poisonous ex or two. By which I mean, they …