Jealousy is a powerful driver. It can consume and destroy lives. I still remember the oldest munchkin, then age 6, sighing as she shook her head, “Jealousy.” (We were talking about her biological mother, and she brought the word up, not me.) But her mother feels jealousy over her children. I am at a loss […]
on shedding sexual (or romantic) ownership Read More »
Swish, she flings her perfect creamy legs out in front of her, then swish back again. If I can stay here forever in this perfect moment, she thinks. He is watching her, she knows, but she is not ready to come in. She keeps swinging in perfect rhythm. The soft pink and gold glow sinks below the lake.
little play on the lake, a Read More »
Dear SAHP, Yes, raising a child is hard. Nobody is denying that. But for the love of all that is holy, please just understand how lucky you are. You will never come home to a babysitter telling you your child took their first steps. You will never have a caregiver be the one to tell
staying with your children is a privilege and a luxury Read More »
I am a very, very bad girl. I need to be punished. He assures me he can cure me of my sickness, my twisted desires for flesh of the same sex. I’m hesitant, until his Glory is outstretched before me. Hmmm, it looks manageable. I think I can take that much of God’s magnificent power.
that time the glory of God penetrated me with His curative powers Read More »
ghosting smearing to cover your own cowardice violating boundaries spreading lies manipulation petty piece of shit
emotional abuse is abuse Read More »
A reminder of the quote from More Than Two, “Make sure there are no monsters under your bed before you do it, because if there are any weak points in your relationship if there is anything you’re not sure about, if there are any little fears or insecurities you have polyamory will find them it
further thoughts on “More Than Two”: you’ll never find “all” the monsters Read More »
I heard that promise many times before, but what they meant is they wanted to take the world from me and replace it with them. They didn’t want to give me the world; rather they wanted to hide me from it. They were afraid for me to go out in the world without them. Afraid
you gave me the world Read More »
I had a friend come out recently, everywhere. I’m proud of her, but above all, I am grateful. You see, while my inner family, my chosen family knows? I am still not in a position to be freely open with who I am, especially regarding being polyamorous and owned. I wish I were- but I cannot risk
honesty is a privilege we should all exercise when we have the ability Read More »
Before you’re their world, their everythingYou’re magnificent, beautiful, a gemThey’ve never seen another woman like youNever known a woman to exude such presence But then you say no Spin on a dimeTurn ugly, cruel, closedYou’re dangerous,Selfish.Cold.A bitch. After you say no I thought you meant itThe flattering words,The promisesBut it was a lie. He said
funny how you’re suddenly ugly/fat/dangerous/a bitch AFTER you say “no” Read More »
God, the determination of those who possess that misguided strength! Misguided in the sense that it, for all the world can see, takes them not only down an undesired path but one that is completely at odds with what they claim to be after. And keep going down it at the same rate as before,
awesome power of misguided strength, the Read More »